No.
I tell people that I will be teaching English abroad, which is something I wouldn't mind doing. It's not that it is something I don't want to do, it is just not what I would like to be doing as a career. I think it would be great to teach foreign students English, as I do love English and I do love other cultures. And if that doesn't work out I would like to go into the psychology field. These are things that I want to do that are realistic.
I know that people say, "follow your dreams!"
Sometimes I wonder, "what are my dreams? What is my ideal life?" Then I realize that my ideal life is not working, having no money problems with a relatively nice house, the chances to travel, a husband, kids, drawing or writing and learning all day long, being a philanthropist, and having a library in my house (that one is really important).
So okay.
I am definitely a dreamer, but I also like to be realistic. I have to eventually work. I'd rather not be an actor, writer, or artist who scrimps by and has to have shitty jobs on the side as I wait for my big 'break-through' that may or may never come. Many people who know me know that I do a lot of art and I write a lot. People always suggest that I should do something with it. Do what? The 2D artist market is dying, and fast. Disney just let go a bunch of 2D artists. Then I'd have to find someone that likes my specific art-style. What many people do not understand about the fine arts is that it is extremely subjective. You get a job based on what other people like. Writing is similar. I love to write and draw, but I don't have to have a career in it to continue doing it ... or enjoy it. I'd love to work for Disney as a 2D artist or hit it big as an author, but I'm okay if that doesn't happen. It relies too heavily on chance! It doesn't matter what your degrees are, it matters about your skill and if others like it. I can still write and draw on the side.
Unfortunately, one thing that I have come to realize that I am very interested in is being a historian (ancient civilization dating back to ancient Mesopotamia, Babylon, Greece, Egypt, et cetera) or a folklorist or someone who does religion/mythology research and study. However, I don't know what it takes to be in that field. I don't know if I should have started out as a History major, or maybe it doesn't matter what your undergraduate degree is, but you have to go to graduate school. Can I even afford graduate school? I wonder if it is even too late to do that. Do those types of people even make a lot of money? This is something I would have to look into, but honestly, once I get my degree I would have to take a break and go teach English to foreigners anyway. Money is too important in this world.
The problem is that I am fickle and have many, many interests.
The least I can do to achieve my ideal life is to have a job that's pay is efficient that I enjoy, even if it isn't the job I'd choose if there was a panel with all the options and I got a job based on that.
One of the biggest problems with teaching is that I am not a teacher type person. I've always had people suggest being a teacher. When I spent most of my life with music, people would suggest teaching music ... when people see my art they suggest teaching art ... when people know I like English ... et cetera. I have attempted to be a tutor. My patience level is too low and I don't know how to efficiently explain things. I understand how it works, why can't you? It isn't hard, why can't you do it right? How can you not understand the first time I explained it?
This is why for the longest time I absolutely refused to become a teacher. I have always known that I will be a horrible teacher. I don't teach people. I would never recommend someone like me to be a teacher. In fact, if you have my mindset do not become a teacher, people don't want you teaching their kids.
So, uh ... why are you going to be a teacher then?
Why?
Because it is a problem that I am like that. I view it as a bad trait to not be able to teach people. Teachers tend to understand their subjects even more because of teaching. Also, I think my lack of teaching skills highlights my true lack of social skills. I have become much more patient in my life compared to even two years ago. The reason I want to teach now is because teaching is a form of learning, and I cannot say no to learning. I must learn to be more patient and I must learn to explain things more efficiently. I want to be able to share what I know with people.
That is why. I don't think it would be a permanent job anyway because most programs that send people to teach English in foreign countries only do it for a set period of time (1-5 years generally). Honestly, I couldn't be a teacher forever. I could teach for a little while, but for the rest of my career? Nope.
Also, it would be difficult to settle down if I just spent my life teaching abroad. I do wish to settle down in Alaska eventually.
Either way, the future isn't set in stone, but currently that is my plan.
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